What todo!

Well i guess it that time of the month again for me, to start thinking of what todo with my life. I get like this once or twice every month where i start to get my self down about my current status in life. A few month's ago i was starting to get things sorted, getting my confidence back (mainly due to the guild, mainly down to you guys :) but then something very big happend in my life, so then whack, im back down to stage one again. Doubting my self and what not.
But I like to think that im getting my self confidence back up again (this time i hope it lasts.) So the real question that im racking my head over is: What shall i do with my life, I know i want to go back to colledge but i had a bad experiance there (which was mainly my falt) so im a bit nervous about going. Or should i try a home study course and do it in my own time... this is what keeps me up a night
Well at least ATM i have my good friends around me to help and the guild when i want to get away from it all, once again thanks :)

*venting completed*

Rugan